BrOwNiE LoR

I saw ur fb status,seriously i'm shock..i duno hw to describe the feeling. I think I shud click the like button and click the comment button and say congratz. But out of sudden my hand is out of control. I cant move my hand to like button, or even comment button. My heart was popping fast n almost jump out frm my heart. My hands was freezy and my eyes are out of focus point. I duno whr shud I focus at, wat shud I do next. I duno hw to type the congratz word. I duno hw to click the like button. I saw everyone was hoping her to accept u, and tat was wat they expect frm the passed 1 yr. I shudnt stop u frm getting ur happy life. I shud wish u n her live happy forever, I shud say congratz to u n her. But i reali duno hw to say the word. I'm scared. I'm seriously scared. Do u knw tat u r nt only my fren, u r one of the most important ppl in my life. I think I'm just too lousy so tat u wnt even accept me or treat me as a gal. I'm just suitable to be alone i think. Reali wish u n her will life happy forever. xxcxxx rmb, must life happily.

Today the result already release out, tat is the result that I had never expect b4 tis..
Management Information System - D
Business Communication - B
Microeconomic - C+
Statistic - C+

When I look at this idiot result i feel like i shud immediately die! I not deserve to live in this world anymore!
come on! Micro and Stat i had learn b4 why i still will get this kind of result! WTF m i duing? Y a person who r idiot as me are living in this world? I'm not deserve to continue be alive! I shud go n die immediately!!!

I'm the biggest failure plus idiot plus loser in the world! I wont forgive myself! I'm nt deserve any forgiveness from anyone!

Failure - according to thefreedictionary.com it means a person or things that is unsuccessful or disappointing.
Loser - which means a person or things that seems destined to be taken advantage.

These two words are very simple, i think most of the people are understand the meaning of them. Why am I explaining the meaning of these two word here? That is because I'm the failure! I'm the loser! Why am I say so? Becoz I fail my final exam paper!! My GPA is lesser than 2.5!!! WTH am i duin is the passed 5 month? Why I can be that stupid till I failed my paper?!

I'm totally a failure! A loser! An idiot! I'm seriously disappointed to myself! why should a person stupid like me keep living in this world? I hope some 1 can help me from this..but i not dare to tell anyone of my friend about this. When I knew this news in front of my friend, none of them are trying to help me or even counsel me. I still remain the smiley face in front of them pretend that i'm ok..the failed doesn't effect me at all. But actually it does hurt me, it hurt me deeply. I cry for whole night but no one know about it. no one will care about it.

I'm seriously a biggest Failure + loser in the world!

2011 gonna end soon..2012 is going to replace the old life..This blog have been accompany me for almost 1 yr, thx for my friend who accompany me to passed this yr.

2011, to me it is a new start..it start my new study life in Inti. It make me have to change my life tat i use to it at Melaka. I have to make new frens, used to the new environment. Life is just a game to learn changes all the time..

2011, to me is the yr tat i turn into 21. It mean alot to me.. It mean i'm not longer a kids,not longer a teenager. I'm an adult nw..(omg..adult?! i hvnt prepare to be yet!!!) but, have to agree that time din stop for me, i still have to face the truth, i'm an ADULT nw..(damn it ><)

2012 is a NEW start..hmm..maybe i shud plan what i wan to be done in the new yr~
1) Finish my year 1 studies~ ^^
2) Get a new design of my life~ (erm.. secret)
3) Get a DSLR camera~
4) Have a awesome trip wif my best fren wif my new camera~ ^^
5) last but not least..get a bf.. (wish...wish...wish...) ><"

I reali hope tat my 2012 will be awesome, fantastic,fabulous life~ HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE~ ^^

Happy birthday Malaysia!!!!! Even now tis wish is alr abit late..but i still wanna wish Malaysia will be getting better in the future..Recently from some Astro tv channels are keep playing this song, called "Malaysian Boy"..What is tat? maybe u din hear b4..tis is a remixed Malaysian version of American boy by Kanye West.. This song is to celebrate Malaysia birthday..

This song bring out the strong bound of different races and culture of Malaysia..I reali love this song very much !!!
Happy Birthday Malaysia!!!!!!!!

credits:
SAYA ANAK MALAYSIA 2011
Azlan & The Typewriter, Hazama, Adira, Hafiz, Fina, Altimet, Aizat, Najwa, Phoebe, Mei Yan, Jason & Aanantha
Music Arrangement: AG & Co
All instruments: AG & Jenk.
Recorded, Mixed Mastered: Kamar Seni Recording Studio


MALAYSIA U R THE BEST!!!!!!!!!

曾经何时我已经忘了怎么笑，只记得怎么哭。。从我认识他之后，我记得的只有哭，只有悲伤。。

Actually i tot tat i did switch off all the switches. But nw i just found out actually i just forcing myself to switch off the switches. And one small virus hack into my system switch on all of the switches again. I try use my antivirus system to block n remove all the virus, but i found out it doesn't work. But nw i trying to install a strongest antivirus system to remove all of the virus.