BrOwNiE LoR

Last week in melaka.. Last week for foundation studies..Last week to meet all my melaka friends.. Everything gonna end in tis week.. sad?kind of.. coz..knw them fir 1 yr dy.. i did make a lot of gud frens..suddenly have to separate of course feel sad..

But we have to say good bye for our future..we cnt stick 2gether forever..i just can wish all my frens have the best future for themselves.. n when we r free we can always meet each other n come out for yam cha^^

For all my frens i knw in melaka..thanks for u guys being my fren..i'm reali happy to knw all of u guys..hope when tis foundation course go to the end, our friendship still nt go to the end..^^

Glad to knw u guys..thank you very much ^^

Recently he is keep staying inside my mind..n keep running arnd my brain for non stop..god..it is not gud at all..tis will hurt me..nw alr last week for my foundation studies..me n him wnt be able to meet anymore..so we r impossible anymore..but hw can i stop?haiz..

when listen to All About Him~ Auburn..his face will come into my mind automatically..it is bad..>< or actually i should let him continue stay in my mind n let the time pass thru n he will go away by himself? haiz..i cnt find any way 2 forget him nw..i'm reali so useless..

All About Him~ Auburn

It's Auburn
And J.R.

'Cause I'm all about him, him, him, him, him
And he's all about me, me, me, me, me
And we don't give a dang, dang, dang, dang, dang
About nobody-e-e-e

'Cause I'm all about him, him, him, him, him
And he's all about me, me, me, me, me
And we don't give a dang, dang, dang, dang, dang
About nobody-e-e-e

Well, had him shooting for me like a ball team
Every guy was a knock out, Don King
But not none of 'em had smarts, that's my thing
It's not enough to have balls, Spalding, ha
One day by Starbucks
I bumped into a guy rocking black Chucks
He said "Excuse me beautiful," I said, "Aww, shucks"
And then he asked, "Well, ay, wanna grab lunch?"

Never ever ever met a guy so fly
Got me hooked like apple pie, I
Think I'm falling and I don't know why
But I won't fight these butterflies

'Cause I'm all about him, him, him, him, him
And he's all about me, me, me, me, me
And we don't give a dang, dang, dang, dang, dang
About nobody-e-e-e

'Cause I'm all about him, him, him, him, him
And he's all about me, me, me, me, me
And we don't give a dang, dang, dang, dang, dang
About nobody-e-e-e

And I swear what we have is just super cool
The way he's always in my head like a Bluetooth
I got a text from him, he said come through
Told me that he wants to kick it, Kung Fu
Don't do nothing much at all
Just we and his boys watching football
He asked for a kiss (Muah) So I gave him two
He said, "Well, thankyou, baby," I said, "You're welcome, boo"

Never ever ever met a guy so fly
Got me hooked like apple pie, I
Think I'm falling and I don't know why

But I won't fight these butterflies

'Cause I'm all about him, him, him, him, him
And he's all about me, me, me, me, me
And we don't give a dang, dang, dang, dang, dang
About nobody-e-e-e

'Cause I'm all about him, him, him, him, him
And he's all about me, me, me, me, me
And we don't give a dang, dang, dang, dang, dang
About nobody-e-e-e

No, I don't need no fancy cars
And I don't need no diamond rings
My baby is all I need and more
'Cause I don't need those extra things

It's not about you (Oh-oh-oh-oh) (It's not about you)
It's not about them (Oh-oh-oh-oh) (It's not about them)
It's all about me (Oh-oh-oh-oh) (It's all about me)
And it's all about him (Oh-oh-oh-oh) (It's all about him)

Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah
Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah
Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah
Said it's all about him, yeah

'Cause I'm all about him, him, him, him, him
And he's all about me, me, me, me, me
And we don't give a dang, dang, dang, dang, dang
About nobody-e-e-e

'Cause I'm all about him, him, him, him, him
And he's all about me, me, me, me, me
And we don't give a dang, dang, dang, dang, dang
About nobody-e-e-e

(Oh-oh-oh-oh) 'Cause I'm all about him
(Oh-oh-oh-oh) 'Cause I'm all about him
(Oh-oh-oh-oh) I'm all about him
(Oh-oh-oh-oh) And we don't give a dang, dang, dang
(Oh-oh-oh-oh) It's all about you
(Oh-oh-oh-oh) It's all about you, boy
(Oh-oh-oh-oh) It's all about you
(Oh-oh-oh-oh)

hope u will c tis n will understand i'm talking abt u..

3/1/2011 2.28 PM :

1) Tis is my 1st post for a new yr..2010 alr leave me n go to the past ( history)..So i shud forget the past n walk on the the future..

2) Look back to 2010..wat i had done..hmm..seen like i done nthg..lol..i think i finally almost complete my foundation yr..hmm..too relax for the yr?! (i guess)

3) Fren..erm..i meet some very special n different ppl..and i did learn a lot of different things in the yr..its make me grow up..

4) In that yr..i learn a lot of things..relationship..problem solving..and oso read ppl mind..tat help me a lot..especially him..he let me knw tat wat post i most suitable to be among frens..and he let me realize hw terrible i'm..

conclusion: I hope i can change in tis yr..i can be better..i can be more mature n more smart..coz..i'm nt longer 18..i'm 21..

I think everyone knw tis song rite..
y i talk abt tis song? coz i still addicted wif it..
y i will addicted wif it? coz i feel like sum hw it is talking abt my story n wat i feel nw..

I tot the feeling alr away frm me..
but when i listen tis song again..it come back to my mind..
but when i try to stop listen tis song..the feeling make me feel more stress..
tis song kind of like helping me relax my feeling n my mind..



p.s. is tat crying will bring any used?if nt y i'm still crying?

why i can forgive u so easily?hmm..actually u hurt me so much y i still forgive u so easily?if u read tis post u let me knw can?

maybe to u i'm nthg..but i might be everything to sumone in the world..
maybe to u i'm childish..but i might be cute in sumones' eyes..
maybe to u i'm useless..but i might be useful for sumone..
maybe when u nid me i'm ur everything; when u dun nid me anymore, i'm nthg to u..

BUT i have to tell u..i nt a rubbish or a toy u can just throw it away..since u just treat me in tat childish way..dun wry i will treat u back in the way u want.. AND ALSO can u be more mature..u r older than me man..grow up ur mind la..dun be like kids anymore..we r 20+ teenage..nt longer kids..wat alr happened just forget it..ya..i said tat to u dy..so wat?! u have to do tat to me to show tat u r smart?!

IDIOT!! tats the most stupid way i ever c..so be mature pls..grow up la..

I think nw is the right time for me to update my blog..i guess.. Just finish accounting II midterm just nw..is freaking hard.. The question tat i din expect b4, it come out itself w/o any inform ><.. But it alr passed nw wat can i do is wait the result out n do the best for the next exam..

I though tat i alr give up everything n just learn to think in another way abt our relationship..but seen like it is nt true..u still cnt accept me..n i stll cnt totally forget u..is tat the end btwn our relationship? dun wry..u dun have to avoid me..coz i'm nt going to take the same course wif u..i will try my best n let u never meet me anymore after our foundation yr..so dun wry..

this all things are come from wat i choose and wat i decide..so dun wry..no matter hw the future turn to be i still will stick wif the decision n choice i make..coz tat is wat i choice i have the responsible to stick n handle of it..

A lot of ppl saying tat i used to put all my problems and emotions inside my heart w/o sharing with anyone.. it is hurting myself..
A lot of ppl saying tat i used to pretend i'm alrite n happy in frnt of ppl even thou i'm sad actually..it is still hurting myself..
i wish to have someone share my feeling nw..i wish to have someone borrow me a shoulder n cry on..i wish to have a back to let me rely for awhile..but whr to get? i used to thought tat he will give me..but i'm wrong..so who else can give me 1?just for awhile..coz after tis foundation yr we wnt meet each other anymore..