BrOwNiE LoR

HoPe FoR sWeEt LiFe~

hmm..nw is 24/7/2010 6:02a.m...y nw i'm writing my blog..actually i oso duno y..the last time i slept is when 23/7/2010 2:++a.m. until 23/7/2010 10:++a.m...hmm..i almost awake around 24 hrs dy rite..yahooooo~~~~cool man..nt only tis..hmm...when 23/7/2010 ard 11:++p.m. i paint my 2 finger nails to black in colour..hehe..feel cooooollllll..i think i'm going to kill by my parents when i meet them when 24/7/2010 around 2p.m...hahaha...anyway..i'm still young so i used up my time...wakakakaka...

hmm..back to the topic y i'm writing my blog nw..coz nw i dun feel like sleeping n i'm nthg to do..facebook?dun wan..watch animax?watched dy..play game?dun wan..boring..sleeping?dun wan..nt sleepy..hmm..the conclusion is i nthg to do so just awake until nw..

anyway..i'm taking bus to go back hometown after 3 to 4 hrs..hehe..nice rite..hehehehe..hmm..duno want to write wat dy..hehe..o..ya..1 more things..i finish my midterm exam dy...wakakakakakakaka..but when next week start i cnt skip any class anymore..or else io sure die in the final exam..T.T

gambateh Yui chan!!!!!!Mio chan dun scold Yui chan anymore ok..she will try to wake up b4 class deT.T *(u knw who am i talking abt rite..heheheheh)

jia~~~mina...sayonara~~~~^^

oki..becoz one of my banana fren who complain abt tat i keep writing chinese blog..she cnt understand..so nw i change back to write english blog again..=.=" hmm..i just finish my accounting n econs midterm test..accounting if i din score A i'll kill myself..economics if i din pass i still will kill myself..but i think i gt around 90%will kill myself becoz of economics..i reali damn scared la..i studied but i dun understand..next week start reali cnt skip any single class dy la..or else i will failed my final man...T.T other then study..sum hw feel lonely..babe...dude...y u all so bz...i reali feel lonely..T.T..wormie darling...i miss kl life...i miss u all...some hw feel wan go back n study wif u all again...especially study law wif wormie darling again..haiz..but no chance dy..haiz..

just hope next yr can get gud result n can transfer to other uni lo..but my fren at mlk mmu will going to kill me..especially the dude(vic)and the babe(amelia)..the will be the 1st who kill me n chop me to the pieces..
nw is already 3 am..i have to slp nw..or else i will be sent back to china very soon..nitez everyone..

所有的一切都结束了。。就在今天这个时间,所有的一切都结束了。。我知道再继续这样下去受伤害的是我们两个,所以我选择放手。。从今天起我还是回到自己一个人的世界,回到那个我本来就已经习惯的世界。。我会恨你,如果不是你打开我上锁很久的门,我也不会这样难过。。但想想其实也是自己的错。。如果不是我太脆弱,你也不会这么容易的闯了进来。。我真的受够了你的不闻不问。。我是你女朋友,但你和我说的话从不超过三句。。那三句还只是:“哦,一点,啊”。。这个连白痴都知道你是在敷衍我好吗。。我受够了。。我不想为了爱你连最后的自尊心都没有了。。我真的累了,爱你爱的好累。。或许你根本就是在玩弄我吧。。算了吧,反正我也不想知道了。。再问下去,不管你的答案是什么都会让我的心碎得四分五裂再也拼凑不了了。。我现在只希望可以找回属于我自己的人生。。属于我自己那个虽然不完美但我很满意的人生。。但我真的不敢再相信爱情了。。真的不敢了。。



很久没用华文打字了,感觉很不一样。之前因为要让不明白华文的朋友明白我在写什么所以才用英文。但今天想为自己的心情自私一次。。最近心情好像不是很好,觉得很烦躁。。突然很想交个男朋友来疼爱,宠一宠自己。。哈哈。。很像发花痴对不对。。哈哈。。但自己一个人孤单久了,总会希望有个人会陪在你身边,听你说话,让你撒娇,关心你,爱护你吧。。或许有些人认为没有男人又不会死,对,没有男人是不会死。。我没说我没男人会死,但谈恋爱的感觉可以改变很多东西。。我喜欢谈恋爱的感觉,我喜欢有人疼爱我的感觉。。但似乎都一直找不到。。有人告诉我,缘分要顺其自然,他想来时自然会来到,但如果你勉强他来到你身边,他也不会呆的久。。对我而言,如果你没有争取那无论什么都不会是你的。争取或顺其自然大概都只是一种手段,一种让他留在自己身边的手段。我选择的是争取,因为我不想坐以待毙,我不喜欢等待,我讨厌等待。等待会产生太多的未知数,我喜欢掌控,我不喜欢在我计划的事情内突然出现变化。。 有时在想是不是自己争取了太多不属于自己的东西,有些东西我抢到了,但我并不快乐。我明明很喜欢那样东西,但当我到手后,我觉得它更本不值得我去抢。。花心吧。。或许是这样吧。。 我只是想在某个人的心中排第一位,但好像都找不到。。

About this blog

This blog just wanna share the feeling and thinking abt brownie's life..
Powered by Blogger.

About Me

My photo
i just love ice-cream and sweet things,i just a normal girl,but just maybe more greedy then them..coz i like to chasing for a better life for myself..

Followers